Many of us are still grieving. Many of us are still trying hard to accept that actor Sushant Singh died due to suicide. While his untimely death has left many heartbroken, his emotional poem that he had written for his late mother a few years ago has gone viral once again.
Losing a parent is never easy. The pain of not being surrounded by your parents stays with you forever. Everyone who has lost a parent could relate to the pain that Sushant was feeling after his mother’s loss.
In 2017, Sushant had shared two notes for his mother, which are not only heart-touching but also painful to read. In the first poem, Sushant had written,
“As long as you were, I was.
Now just in your memories I come alive.
Like a shadow, Just a flicker.
Time doesn’t move here.
It’s beautiful, It’s forever…”
In another note, he wrote the most heartbreaking words that capture the pain of losing someone very close. Referring to his mom, he mentioned:
“Do you remember?
You promised that you would be with me forever, and
I promised you that I would keep smiling no matter what.
It seems we both were wrong, mother…”
Even the actor’s last Instagram post before his death was a tribute to his mother:
“Blurred past evaporating from teardrops.
Unending dreams carving an arc of smile.
And a fleeting life, negotiating between the two…#Maa”.
While recalling the last interaction Sushant had with his mother, he mentioned in an interview:
So, she would call me every day at around 7-7.30 pm. I was so pampered and I know that every mother pampers their kids, but this was so unconditional, that I cannot explain it. And it took a big, big piece of her when she allowed me to go away and study. She would be, ‘Don’t do anything but stay with me’. And she still allowed me to go. She would call me everyday and would try to pretend to be happy. I could sense all of it. On December 11, I got a call at 11.30 pm. I picked up and she was crying. I was like, ‘What is wrong, What happened?’ She said, ‘Nothing. Can you take out some time and come back?’ I told her, ‘No, abhi kaise hoga? I will come during Holi. Why do you want me to come now? I am okay’, etc. I asked her to stop crying. I was trying to be mature, but I could sense that I didn’t want to go back at that point of time. I knew she was missing me and wanted me around all the time, but I thought this was the right thing to do — to go home later. She just asked me to take care of myself. It felt odd. That was the last line my mom told me. Next day, she had a brain haemorrhage and she passed away. She was 40-something, fine before this suddenly happened.
At IFORHER, we hope Sushant’s soul rests in peace and may be he is re-united with his mom, whom he loved so dearly!
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